if murder, is not a sin...

then i will first kill him,
then let you all kill me.

kill meeeeeee...

you know the song "wait for you" by elliot yamin?
i used to think "I" was very very stupid to want to spend his whole life waiting for his ex who will NEVER COME BACK,
who became selfish all of a sudden, most probably due to continuous traumatizing experiences...

but i think i perfectly understood how "I" felt now?
call me stupiddddd.

everyone is telling me to give up.
everyone is telling me that my ex will never come back, no matter what i do.
everyone is telling me to move on...

blargh.
you all so pandai, you move on let me see la.
because we've been in despair for quite some time already.

now the barrier is broken, but you're trying to mend it.
why oh why.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie
What you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
How could you forget about me
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just
Just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

yay. tears. oh how much i missed you, heartache.